today, i want to be a delivery nurse. like, i'm so ready, i want to start taking courses so i'll have the prereqs for nursing school. and i want to start tomorrow.
(but if i'm going to do that, why not just go ahead and go to PA school?)
today, i also want to pursue a master's degree at lsu in baton rouge, so i can graduate from lsu.
what am i supposed to do? someone, give me some insight. even if it's just on a whim, tell me how you feel about me today. even if you are a stranger, and want to leave an anonymous comment - just do it. i need all the help i can get.
i'm hungry. and want to leave for lunch.
i really do need to do some 'work after lunch.'
i have to write bills checks today.
and work out - i think lindsey and i are going to mosley's tonight after work.
and clean my room.
and arrange my bookshelf.
and finish my laundry.
i need to take a week day off here soon and get everything done.
i'm going to order tom's wedges soon, but i don't know if i want black, green, or yellow yet. suggestions?
last night i had a dream that i was pregnant, went to cape cod, ate a bunch of crunched up shards of ibuprofen that a doctor gave me, and some oreo cookie-type things. i had a handful of the shards, and a handful of the cookie things, and i was drinking something to help wash all of this down, and i was stressed about having to eat it all, and how fast i was eating it (not fast enough, apparently). i also wrote my mom a letter, got apologized to for not receiving a response to the letter, and freaked out about having a baby. my mom told me, 'you're going to experience some anxiety.' i was super stressed because i had NEVER felt the baby kick. and because i hadn't found out i was pregnant until late, and had been drinking. when i heard the alarm go off, i was confused about where i was (justin's), but relieved to realize it was a dream. but, it felt like i had seriously travelled back to my sleeping body when i woke up. i actually felt pregnant, and i actually felt like i was in massachusetts.
i just asked lindsey, out loud, 'why am i so tormented?'
we don't know why.
i think i'm about to venture down to the cafeteria to pick up something to eat. or something. i don't know. but at 1:30, i have to start getting some work done.