i've thought up a new book idea. i'm developing it as we speak. and i will post some 'excerpts' as soon as i've got some more material. i know what i want to do with my life. and you know, maybe i'll have to have '9-to-5s' until i can 'make it.' but i truly believe i can. make it. i truly believe i can make it. because i have a voice. and i'm creative. and i have something important to say. i believe in myself. this is the only time i really feel like me. and it's worth it. it's so worth it.
the most important thing you learn from people and places and things is that to embrace yourself is to do yourself the biggest favor you could ever dream possible. and sometimes embracing myself means letting the words out, whether they make sense or not. this is what the inside of my head sounds like. and whether or not it's poetic or beautiful by whoever's made up standards, the thing is.. it IS still poetic and beautiful.
if you don't hold back.. if you don't try and fit in to someone's unwritten standards.. if you simply be and do everything the way you to want to do it.. well.. you WILL be beautiful.
it's so simple.
and yet, we try and try to make it so HARD.
the hardest thing to do in life is to stop this fight.
but i'm going to try. and try. and try. til i get it RIGHT.